Confessing Relieved My Stress

I was under a lot of stress from my work and financial situation. My girlfriend Susan and I split up about a year earlier. We texted often and even met a couple of times for a quick fuck. She had a new boyfriend yet somehow we seemed closer than ever.

She openly talked about their sex life and I even shared things I never would’ve shared when we were together like that I secretly wanted to suck a cock at least once. It felt liberating to say it to someone. She was surprisingly understanding.She said she thought it was normal thinking but most people won’t admit it.

The more we spoke about it. I found it was very stress relieving to openly talk and confess my innermost thoughts to her. She always encouraged my desire to suck a man’s cock and told me often that she was sure I would like it.

I told her that I didn’t think I could ever actually go thru with it. But speaking openly with her about men’s cocks felt very stress relieving.

One day she showed up to my apartment carrying a bag. She sat the bag down and without any further comment on about the bag we had sex as we had other times since our separation. Only this time during our fucking she spoke about men and all the variety of colors and sizes of cocks.

When we finished, instead of leaving as was usual she retrieved the bag put it on the bed. She said she was thinking about my problem and really thought I should be a feminine gay bottom. She said she was sure I would really like being in the submissive female role. She started taking the items from the bag. It was a wig, some of her clothes and makeup.

She told me she found a man that would allow me to suck his cock. He likes women but agreed that if she dressed me as a woman and I was near passable, he would allow me suck his cock.

This news made me both excited and admittedly nervous. She continued telling me how she was sure that I would love being in the female sexual role. I agreed to go along with it and let her give me a feminine makeover. Over the next few hours she removed all my body hair and took her time being sure my appearance was as feminine as possible.

I looked in the mirror, and surprisingly thanks to my small frame I did look passable for a woman. She told me I was not only passable, but pretty. I pushed the hair of the wig back behind my ear looking at the clip on dangling earrings she had brought me.

She told me if I grew my hair out just a little more. She could cut it so it could easily be styled into a woman’s hairstyle. I was admiring myself and the great job my ex-girlfriend did feminizing me. I was still nervous about meeting a man and sucking his cock.

There was a knock on the door. I immediately felt a little panic and to nervous to answer the door dressed as a woman. She smiled at me and ran to the door holding the knob but not opening it she turned toward me and said. “ I thought a lot about who I could get that would allow you to suck his cock. Then it came to me my brother would be perfect.”

I felt myself panicking. I held my hand up as to stop her from opening the door. She only had one brother, and he was at least five years older than me. I had only met him once and it was a brief meeting. She released the door and back to me. “It will be fine. Believe me, my brother will be perfect. I will stay with you.”

I must admit the idea of her watching me sucking her brother’s cock made me feel a rush of horniness. I looked at myself in the mirror again. He knocked on the door again. She returned the door and opened it.

Her brother came inside looked at me and smiled. He commented that I did look very pretty. Her brother started opening his pants. He pulled his cock out. I was surprised to see that it was larger than mine, though admittedly I am barely average.

Susan was obviously excited as she told me to get on my knees and suck his dick. I obeyed and dropped to my knees in front of him and took his cock in my mouth. I sucked him for a few minutes as Susan stood next to us watching.

I heard her tell her brother to sit down. Then he pulled his dick from my mouth and took a few steps and said in a nearby chair. Susan waved her arms indicating for me to resume sucking her brother’s penis.

I knelt between her brother’s legs and started sucking again. Susan sat on the end of the couch watching us. I turned my head and could see that she was watching very intently.

I liked sucking her brother’s cock. After a minute or two, she asked her brother if I was doing a good job? He answered I was. The two of them began casually talking about how I obviously was enjoying her brother’s cock. Their conversation was making me feel more comfortable. Being dressed as a woman also helped me feel comfortable in the female role.

I began wondering as I sucked his cock had Susan saw her brother‘s cock before? I wondered if she had even possibly had sex with him? As she was talking very comfortable with him while watching me sucking his cock.

Susan instructed me to lick his balls. I stopped my sucking and began licking his balls. “Suck on them, but be gentle.” Susan continued giving me direction.

After a couple of minutes of giving his balls attention, Susan told me to go back to sucking his cock. I sucked his cock for the next 15 minutes or so as Susan and her brother continued their conversation.

I felt her brother tensing up as he announced he was going to cum. Susan told him to cum in my mouth. She told me to swallow every drop. I continued sucking at a slightly faster rate bobbing my head up and down on his shaft. I was anxious to make him cum.

I tasted the first shot of his load as it filled my mouth. I slowed my pace and took most of his cock out of my mouth, leaving only the head inside as I gently continued, sucking until I had completely drained his balls.

He stood up, tucked his cock away and zipped up his pants. He thanked me and Susan for the blowjob and she walked with him to my apartment door. I heard her thank him as he left.

As soon as he was gone. Susan gave me a big hug. “Well? Well? Well? She asked me very excitedly.

“It was nice.” I answered her.

“No, you loved it. Tell me you loved it.” She said, still very excited.

“OK I did love it.” I admitted to her.

“I knew it!” she said. “I’m going to help you find other cocks to suck. I’m going to help you be a feminine gay bottom.”

Her excitement made me smile. She put her hands on my shoulders, looking directly in my eyes, she continued. “You are going to love being a gay bottom. I am going to help you find cocks to suck. Eventually, find you a man so you can be his girlfriend.”

I could tell she meant this in the best of ways. She seemed especially happy.

“I don’t know.” I sent to her meekly. Again, she just continued in her excitement. “Of course you can suck my brother‘s cock again. He told me when he left he would be happy to come over anytime and let you suck his cock.”

Returning the conversation to her brother. I took this opportunity. I reached out to hold still for a minute from all of her excited bouncing around.

As she calmed for a second. I asked her if she had ever done anything with her brother?

She was still smiling at me when she answered. “ Yes, I did many times. I have jacked him off and give him blowjobs. And he has eaten my pussy on more than one occasion. We just don’t have sex.” I took that that she meant they did not have intercourse.

Once again, she hugged me and gave me a kiss. Then looking at me and her most seductive but happy look. She said again. “ I am going to help you be gay. You’re going to love being the woman for a man.” She continued. “ I knew you would just love sucking cock. I knew my brother’s big cock would be just perfect to start you out. I think I will tell him to come by and feed you his cock every day until we can get you a boyfriend. You would like that wouldn’t you?”

I glanced over my shoulder at myself, in the full length mirror on the wall. I look back at her as she rattled on about how happy she was that I liked cock.

I thought to myself for a moment. I did feel rather stress-free. And listening to her talking, encouraging me to openly talk about men and their cocks. I thought again how good it felt to talk about these things with her.

I looked at her and told her. “ OK Susan, I think you are right. I want you to help me turn gay.”

As she seemingly ignored everything else, I said, once I told her this, she squealed with excitement and spun around in a circle. “ I love that you want to be gay I’m going to have so much fun with you as my gay friend.”

Well, that’s how it happened. I don’t know that I’ve ever became 100% gay. But with her help I certainly sucked a lot of cock. I also found out that I like being submissive I like feeling a large men’s hand on my back, holding me down as they fuck my ass. It is definitely stress, relieving being submissive and used.